Got swag or heart

Right or wrong,i'm leaving it to God. What else is there for me? Am i making the right decisions that I have no single clue about? I am tired. Tired of literally everything else around me. It's always been ,"hey faey,look on the bright side. i'm sure things will get better" "this is all a test,you can overcome all this shit". Try being in my shoes and tell me WHAT ELSE CAN I DO.

It's like in every situation,i'm always torn apart. It's not entirely my fault that i chose it to be this WAY. but somehow it usually revolves around the rest of the people in my life. I try so hard to please. At the end of it all,i find myself struggling,alone. But please remember i've got heart leh.